Monthly Archives: January 2015
While I’m thinking about my next post (about reading!)… something from my other blog, Mary and Marie:
I have been working with a set of questions as journal prompts since November. Every morning, I go through them. I let them challenge me. I add to the pages as new thoughts and new responses emerge. Sometimes, they remind me of who I am. Other times, they focus me for my day.
One of the questions is “Who do you need to forgive today?” I have listed on that page a bunch of names, people who have caused old scars and fresh wounds, some still bleeding. When I get to this page, I try to think of their intentions. I pray. I ask for more love. Some of these people I’m pretty sure I’ve forgiven. I question what it means to use “forgive” in the past tense. Is it supposed to stop hurting?
I had an encounter yesterday with an individual who was already on my list of people-to-forgive. It left me with an out-of-breath soreness in my chest I can only identify as anxiety, a knot in my neck by the end of the conversation, my skin breaking out after a few hours of trying to process the conversation. I woke up in the middle of the night, still thinking about it, unable to get back to sleep.
This morning when I saw “Who do you need to forgive today?,” the answer in my spirit was so clear: The person who most needs it, the person you’re most angry at, the person you’re most hurt by.
New post should be coming soon on this site, but in the meantime, want to share a post from my other blog: on Science and Faith, and a call for more understanding between the two, and a more inclusive attitude in academia more generally.